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“DifFeRenT” – The Irony of Unstanding Multiple Viewpoints except “normal”…

I can say this… pretty much as am absolute truth.

  1. I accept myself.
  2. The world does not except me.  (You really don’t understand me.  It’s true.)

 

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Since the time I was a little boy, recall what many might consider – Schizophrenia.  In actually it’s similar I suppose, but it’s not Schizophrenia.  I just assume most people don’t experience this… because it haven’t observed signs of the majority of others having similar experiences.

Anyways, sometimes it seems that my “brain” thinks on it’s own.  I remember times in math class when given rather complex equations and before I registered the math problem in my conscious mind, a near estimate had been presented for pickup…

My whole life, I have often “just know” the answers to cognitive problems, only then to have my sluggish consciousness have to do the “laborious” computations.

And then when I start to come up with a plan… there is that exhilarating rush of my mind sprinting “off to the races!”

And the times when my thoughts move so fast that it’s impossible to do verbal expression of them simultaeously.  I would have to be able to speak 3 or 4 times faster than humanly possible!

Then… there are the times when I feel my brain trying to rearrange and reestabilish coherent correlations between large amounts of data from various sources, subjects, events, etc. in order to establish a more complete understand or correct a misconception…

 

= = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =

 

THIS is my “normal”, which I a reasonably high level of certainty that most people have no way of coming close to relating to…

It’s a bittersweet “normal”.  It’s me.  (well… at least this “brain” lives inside my head… therefore most would assume that it’s an innate part of me… yet if sometimes feels separate…)

And it’s not FAIR!!! I probably can understand you. (If you were honest and open enough to let me try.)

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And your (simplistic) response – “Stop thinking so much.”

I might as well respond – “Stop breathing!!!!”